Dolphins and the Sea, Sedna

I spent 4 hours on the water today, with doing a whale watching and instead we found dolphins. Unfortunately there were no whales to be found, but it’s nature and that’s something that happens. The ten hour drive to and from is what sucked [roundtrip].

I got many pictures of the dolphins at least, I hope that at least one of those turned out.

I can remember standing in the sun, feeling the warmth of it and the cool air of the sea wind. I called out to Sedna to hear my words, asking her to help us find many whales that day. I wanted to dedicate the trip to her, but felt that it was too quick and sudden. An afterthought, although she assured me that it was all okay and that she was happy I got to experience it.

Overall, pretty good day, just really disappointed that there were no whales.

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Prayers

I have been stressed and just all over the place. I wanted to find peace and understanding with myself now that I am not working.

I lit all the candles on my altar and lit incense that all agreed on. I prayed to them. It’s been forever since I officially sent prayers and thanks, but I felt that I needed to. They answered my silent prayers for help finding a cheap house, and now I’m going to live in a place that is 1/3 of our rent now. It’s a relief and I couldn’t be more thankful that they answered me. 

I spoke to them and it wasn’t awkward like I thought it would be. I mean, I can just astral travel and speak with them no problem. I felt like it was more personal and meant so much more. I placed a special pen (Venetian glass, hand blown, dip pen) on the altar and asked that they help me find my muse, my creativity. To keep busy on the down times. I promise to dedicate the books to them, which will be interesting come time to publish.

I could feel a difference immediately the next day. I felt lighter and more positive. I feel like I can finish my books and now inspired to write more!

My love goes to you: Thor, Sedna, Bast, Kurai, Skadi.. 

Kurai’iana and Sedna, Of Growth and Libation

I’m going to write more about what I’ve done in overall with them. Talking has really soothed my feathers, so to speak.

I want to do something for each of them, as a way to really kick off this path. Today, my mom was replanting her tomatoes because they were too big for the containers and it’s too wet to plant them in the ground. I spoke with my Family before doing this, as I wanted their input on beginning this deeper path.

In turn, Kurai was pleased that I wanted to help with the growing of her (my mom’s) tomatoes. So she took some of the dirt and I did automatic writing where she blessed my hands and palms with a growth sigil, so that the plants grow strong. I’m going to draw it up later for my personal journal. The picture is most of the plants we repotted. 

The soil was new, so the plants had to be watered. A good friend of mine mentioned their own devotional practice of libation. I had to look it up to understand what it was:


I’ve done this before, during the Wild Hunt for the Norse pantheon. I gave them wine.

Today, I was able to pour life-giving water in honor of Sedna and the life she gave to the mammals of the earth. (Mythology is of the seals, whales, dolphins, etc.)

I feel super happy in that they accepted their devotions and devotional time with pleasure at the act.

I feel that there is more to come, things that are bigger and more to do for them. But as my good friend says: baby steps.

Godly Feels

Im having such feels in regards to the deities that I work with. In some way, I am wanting to delve deeper into the world of devotion. This scares the ever living shit out of me.

I grew up Catholic. I grew up Roman Catholic. If that doesn’t explain it right there, then I can’t help you understand just how damned lost I am.

What the hell am I supposed to do? How do I work with them? How do I devote time to them? How to I work? Do I pray? Do I.. what? I’m lost and really don’t know where to go with this. I wanted to journal my way through this new thing. But will it stick? Can I stick to being more religious/spiritual? I hate religious term usage, mainly because people assume that if you are religious, you want God and the Bible shoved down your throat.

How can I tell people that hey! Your God royally screwed me over as a kid, I don’t want to hear jack shit about the “gentle and caring” God. Because what God lets their faithful deal with bullying, sexual assualt, and all other shitfests that cause severe emotional and mental trauma at the age of 7-9. The age where you don’t understand why your God won’t help you out or listen to you.

I’ve come to peace… not really. I really have respect that people believe in God and Jesus and the Christian faith. My mother is now Greek Orthodox. That shit makes more sense than Catholicism! And she at least doesn’t try to steer me from my devil path to the path of light and love and blah.

God, I feel like I’ve been keeping all this bundled up. But that damned fear from when I was a child.. it’s passed on to now.

What if my Gods that I love and want to work with.. what if they do the same? When I need them, will they be there for me?

The answer is yes. I’ve never had my deities tell me no. I’d have to work for what I asked for as a payment, but they still did it for me. I can call upon Thor at any time to help me when I am scared or when I need his love. I can call upon Sedna for her strength and emotional support. I can call upon Bastet for the love of a Mother, for confidence in myself and my abilities. I can call upon Kurai’iana to help me heal from pain and to feel the cooling touch of someone who can help me heal and grow. I can call upon Skadi, whom I’ve barely worked with, to be the backbone when I can’t stand for myself.

They ALL have come to my aid, when the Christian God left a child to fend for themselves and never answered. I have no love for Him. Only respect because the God my Mother loves, answers her.

I want to journal my learning and devotional things, but can I post them here? Can I truly be so open and honest with what I’m learning?

The truth is no. I can’t. There is not a privacy to this. I can share things that are relevant, but I cannot share the magic and the lessons they teach. The private moments of the Leanel Harvest, the marriage ceremony between myself and Thor. I’ll keep this updated when I can, but I know that there are so many things to add that I can’t share here because it’s too public.

Which way should I go? Should I create a new WP that is private? Should I do a Word Document? Where?

The hardest part is starting and I have to make a decision. Where do I start?

New Year’s Tidings and Wishes

This is the year’s passed of lessons and hard learned ones at that. Of survival and confidence, trust and love. 

This coming year has much in store and I am so happy and loved by my deities, my family.

This is for our bonds of friendship and love.

This year I truly want to delve more into my practice and my spirituality. This year I want to devote more to you, my family.

This year is going to be beautiful and amazing, in reward for doing so well this past year. 

To the new year, tidings and blessings. To the love of the new.

Ritual of Purification

For awhile now I have been feeling the need to undergo a purification both physically and spiritually. Just to get things of the past in the past and not affecting the natural now. So with that, I traveled to my place in order to do a ritual, only to find that Sedna had joined me. She actually joined me and guided me to my ritual room on my sacred place.

She walked me through the process of doing an inanimate purification of a concept or thing that is not physically tangible to the Physical. Then I went through the manner of doing  purification of my own Astral body and my Physical body. I feel a bit unbalanced and trying to get back into sorts, but otherwise feel better. Like previously when doing rituals in this room, a sigil was left behind for me to use when I needed to experience or do a quick purification of myself or something. Sedna is quite pleased with this and that I’m attempting to become more active.

Mournful

To my devotions,
I am mournful of how little I have spoken to you.
I am fraught with the material world’s issues.
Yet, you continue to stand strong.
Yet, you percieve me as still being Yours.
Yet, you still urge and praise me for things of the Material.
I wish I could be the strong one that you seem to see.
I cannot see it yet.
With you guidance, I hope to be successful in more than just the Material.
I have devoted your Space and flourished it with my love.
We will speak soon.
With All My Love,
Your Daughter